have you ever had one of those weeks where you feel like you just… can’t?  yeah, totally having one of those weeks.  i took a rather large (physical) tumble eight weeks ago due to health complications.  since then, i feel like i’ve been a little off my game, not just health-wise, but work-wise, as well.  family, friends, and the hubs have been amazingly supportive, and i am beyond thankful for that.  i have so many fantastic people in my life.

work can be… well, tough work

but back to the work aspect.  it made sense that painting took a short-term backseat to my physical health (i can get, um, a little frenetic when i’m painting). however, i still felt like i should have been blogging.  i have been particularly disappointed in my lack of work-related progress these past few days.  then today, i happened to glance at one of my paintings.  completed in april of this year, “heavy walls (no. 4)” immediately reminded me of why i initially began my “heavy walls” series.  for me, the walls to which i refer are physical, but they can often be emotional, too.  like its predecessors, “heavy walls (no. 4)” depicts the contrast between order and disorder, light and darkness, cohesion and dissolution.  it’s colorful, but it’s also full of texture, depth, and some other heavy shit (in its blunt reality).

it’s like i knew i was going to need a reminder of my passion and substance as an artist well before my injury.  talk about motivation.  i am beginning this week with positive energy.  i have the drive, and i have the support.  i also have hitchcock films and reruns of “arrested development” to keep me company into those wee hours of the night as i work (because i’m one of those extrovert artists who always craves a little company).

cannot wait to see where this renewed passion takes me.